Pieces of Me

Feeling Temporary. That sums up my morning today. I feel like I'm passing, like everything is moving around me, and I need to keep up. Have you ever had the overwhelming urge to improve yourself? To change something that you have always been hard on yourself about, and just want to get rid of or fix? Well, that's how I happen to feel about a LOT of stuff in my life. My messy apartment, my work out schedule, my eating habits. And I guess these are things that everyone seems to fret over, but I intend to do something about it, because I know people who have all this together. There's that super person out there that washes dishes EVERYDAY, and vacuums and sweeps on a schedule. They have time to work out, buy fresh produce, and save puppies and orphans.
It feels like you're trying to walk in mud., and the further you trudge in, the harder it gets, the more fatigued and worn down you are, and it's too late to turn around, yet there is so much more ahead of you. Pretty dire circumstances huh? LOL. Life isn't meant to be hard I think. I mean, thanks to the Fall, yeah, we will have to work and toil all the days of our life (thanks Eve), but there is more to life.
I had an epiphany as I was jogging about a month ago. I realized very all of a sudden, that there are enough hours in the day, you just have to know what to do with them. Sounded simple enough to me, I needed to find a plan to ration my hours in a way that all that need be done, get done. Like most plans, it makes a lot more sense on paper, than practice, but I think if I really work at this, I can have a break through!
Setting small goals was the first step, doing just a little everyday, and it's working so far, I already feel like less of a failure! I've also decided what is super important to me over what can wait till later, prioritization prevents me from being overloaded and overwhelmed. I try to do a bit everyday, sweep something, or pick up stuff, and little by little I think it's working.
I wish I knew the secret of the "each day brings my next opportunity to better myself" mentality, but I already spend so much time holding together the me that exists NOW to stop from it falling apart. Women have it so hard I think, and while I feel like some stuff is my duty, it still seems really unfair sometimes! I don't know what I'll do when babies show up, I am already juggling a bowling ball, flaming torch, and bunny, then someone is going to toss in a chainsaw, and I think things are going to get REAL very quickly...